We're coming up on the 5th month of you being in Heaven. Everybody keeps telling me that it gets easier....it does and doesn't. The pain is still there but it doesn't consume my every thought like it did. I'm still very angry. I am TRYING to let that go because I know you wouldn't want that for me. I just miss you so much. I miss what could have been for all of us. We needed another girl in the house, I am way out numbered.
I wonder what you would be like at 5 months old. Sometimes I see a baby that looks about your age and I stare because I want that to be us. They say that someday I will understand why you aren't with me and I hope I do. I really miss you. I know Grandma Doris is taking good care of you for me.