One of my goals is to get better at blogging. Sorry :(
I'm gonna state the obvious....I miss you. You're 4 months old and when I close my eyes I can see you. Chubby cheeks, my nose and mouth, your daddy's jet black hair (lots of it!!). I imagine you'd look up at me with the same big brown eyes both of your brother's have. You'd give me real smiles and giggles. You would probably be sick of PINK! Its my favorite color and all I've been able to buy for the past 11 years is blue.
I imagine that you're a good baby because I deserve a non colicky one after the other two, especially Noah! You've got your daddy's outgoing personality already. You truly are his little princess and you would have him absolutely wrapped around your little finger!
Tyler would play it cool because he's almost 11 and playing with babies isn't cool but he'd be very protective of you like he is with Noah. Noah would be absolutely in love with you. He lights up when he sees a baby. He'd be a great big brother.
I really wish I would've have the chance to be your mommy here on earth. The most important things in my life are my babies and its so hard to have to go on without you. You were with me for 35 weeks, 5 days,and 67 minutes and I miss you. I would do it all again just to look at your precious face. It really wasn't enough time. I know that grandma Doris is taking care of you until I get there. She was a wonderful mother to me. I love you so much and I will think of you every day for the rest of my life. I miss you.